Lovers don’t finally meet somewhere. They’re in each other all along. –Rumi
The Woman Inside Her is a novel-in-progress, and much of this website is about my journey toward its completion. Throughout, I will share with you bits and pieces, questions and conclusions, about the story’s overall themes: dysfunctional parent-child bonds and their relevance to adult relationships and sexuality, coming of age in sexual terms, and the unconscious patterns that bind and blind so many struggling to achieve healthy adult intimacy. As the story begins …
The year is 1969, “the pill” has arrived, the Sexual Revolution is in full swing, and all the rules about relationships and sex have been turned upside down. Experimentation and consciousness exploration are in and everything traditional is out, and San Francisco is the center of it all.
Thrown into this steamy cauldron is twenty-one-year-old Krista Hiatt, a statuesque beauty who turns heads and sparks men’s fantasies, especially men who deem it their mission to help liberate the sexuality of every accessible female. After all, in these times of “free love,” women could and these men assumed should “do it” as readily as men. But Krista does not willingly play the temptress role that is projected onto her. Because of her painful history, she cannot be or do what is expected of her, and is instead vulnerable to repeated misunderstanding and abuse–unless, that is, she meets “the one” who will ravish her and lead her across the threshold from girlhood to womanhood. Along the way, her journey isn’t easy, but she is a survivor, smart and resilient, and refuses to accept the fate she fears: that she will never truly love and be loved.
Enter psychologist Garrett Traynor, thirty-nine, a thoroughly gorgeous, recently divorced father of a “tween” girl and a man with a complicated past and present of his own. Expected to follow in the footsteps of his conservative preacher father and grandfather before him, he has instead rejected the faith of his true-believer parents and is now the “lapsed” black sheep of the family, searching for answers in realms of consciousness more akin to the religious philosophies of the East or maybe even better-living-through-chemistry. As they first get acquainted, Krista knows little of this; to her, he is a good father and man called to a healing profession, and unnervingly sexy.
Both Krista and Garrett deal with the twisted influences of parents they feel failed them, each in their own ways, and both unconsciously seek healing of their pasts through their relationships. They are intensely and inexplicably drawn to one another. Is it their destiny to be together, or to lose in love?
Then there is Max, the tall, rakishly handsome novelist who keeps appearing, and whom Krista literally runs smack-dab into not once but twice. What is his role in her life?
The Woman Inside Her (excerpt) boldly delves into realms of romance and relationships, psyche and soul, the carnal and the sacred. On the surface, it is a coming of age story, but one with uncommon twists and turns that derive from familial and religious sexual repression, misinformation, and abuse, all clashing with the Sixties “Sexual Revolution” and culturally volatile era the story is set in. On a deeper level, however, it is a tale about how some men and women, their journey from childhood to adulthood distorted or damaged by early wounding, are inevitably and intensely drawn to each other in the unconscious hope of healing, and the struggle for love and healthy sexual intimacy that results. The Woman Inside Her is also as much a tale of spiritual awakening as it is of sexual awakening, and it dares to combine the two as it takes the reader on a journey from confusion to understanding, from depression and despair to profound grace and joy, and ultimately to what it means to be Woman, integrated in body, mind, and spirit.
I invite you to come along with me on my writing journey, even participate in my story’s unfolding as I revise and polish my draft-in-progress and arrive at a finished manuscript. You can read a brief excerpt here. Feel free to comment and share your thoughts with me. After all, I’m writing my novel for you, my future readers.
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Disclaimer: The Woman Inside Her is a work of fiction. Names, characters, businesses, places, events and incidents are either the products of the author’s imagination or used in a fictitious manner. Any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, or actual events is purely coincidental.
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